The person I love the most, 2nd only to Jesus, is my wife Star. She is incredible. I married WAY over my head. Everytime I walk in the door after a day at work and see her face I think, "I am so lucky!".
She loves me. She cares for me. She cares for our children. She tells me exactly how she feels - even when it hurts. She understands me. She is full of life. She listens to me even when I'm not making any sense. I love her freedom. I love her passion for Jesus and for people. I love the way she affirms me, while constantly challenging and motivating me through her life. I love that she can be totally present in any conversation regardless of what's going on around her. I love that she is fragile, and that she is not afraid to cry and show her emotions.
Did I mention she loves me?
So why in the heck would I ever do anything to hurt her?
We, by far, do not have the perfect relationship. We fight, say things we regret, turn the cold shoulder, just like anyone else. I'm not talking about that stuff. I'm talking about making a purposeful decision to do something, in a seemingly "sound mind" that would hurt her deeply.
I did that recently.
What's worse, I lied to her about what I did.
What's good...I ended up telling her about it.
What's really good...she loved me through it. She expressed, her anger and hurt...some more anger and hurt, but she loved me through it.
I'm not talking about the kind of love that ignores what happened and acts like everything's ok. I'm talking about looking me in the eye, like only she can with me, and speaking directly through to my heart that she loves me despite what I did. There's nothing like knowing that someone loves you like that.
The most beautiful part of this whole deal is realizing that God looks at me everyday like this. I just don't realize it. He is constantly looking at me in the eye, and speaking directly through to my heart that he loves me exactly for who I am.
Thank you Star for your love, and for reminding me of the Love that God has for me all the time.
So today is another great day knowing that my wife loves me, and God loves me even more......for exactly who I am.
H
